If this is a dream....

let me never wake up.

I feel like I'm tempting fate here guys but....wow. Things are just..... wow.

Things that I've wished for, forever and a day and its like wow its all actually happening and not because of any grand thing from me (well at least I think so).

I don't even know why I'm saying all this...but I think its that time old thing- follow your dreams. For so long I had resigned myself to "this is just how it's gonna be" but one day I had it and then everything changed.

Getting there will hurt though. 100%. So- give plenty of high-fives, make yourself laugh hard and often by any means necessary and people who arnt there for you or pulling you down- forget them.

I know letting go is the worst and most difficult thing ever for me (clingy bitch I think) but the more I do it the better and easier it is- people are saying I'm hardcore now!

I dunno I feel like its still me but somehow....a better me


Shoutout to :MeanbreedDave: +  for being there for me during the pain. Don't know what i'd have done without you guys. I'm a lucky sod for you two be in my life and I'm currently being horrible and a bad friend by being so crap with reply times </3 I still love you and don't think I could ever stop. (end mush transmission)

SO anyone who needs a laugh and a kick up the arse: TADA



Stay Strong my friends. Better times are coming